January 2012
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I’m sitting her trying to describe how I feel but I can’t say it any better than “I miss you.” But it’s not just that. It’s that I’m just so freaking scared. I feel like I can’t connect with you on the level that I wish I could, but I feel that way with almost everyone. I hold back my thoughts and my words and everything because I’m afraid of...
What’s the point?
We’re born to feel and then we’re reprimanded for those feelings. We’re told to have ambition and to dream big and wide, but they shoot us down when they don’t agree. We let other people’s thoughts and opinions affect our lives, when the funny part is… it’s our lives. We care too much and I’m going to break free from that because I’m tired of...
No one ever fucking listens anyways so I just keep it all to myself and hope that I can get used to what hurts me instead of trying to fix it.
Okay well I’ve just completely inspired myself to get back into taking pictures everyday.
Time for Adventures+Film.
This feeling is affecting me far worse than any break up or any boy has ever affected me. It’s not even about a boy. It’s about something much bigger than that and it hurts so badly. I feel like I could address things that bother me for hours but I don’t even know if that’s what really is bothering me. I don’t know. I hate this feeling. I really love the thought of...
I mean well. I really do.
We deserve so much more than we believe. Well, in most cases. We’re so hard on ourselves, but sometimes we’re not hard enough. Our vision’s never correct.
Eh whatever. I’ll get used to it.
I hope I don’t push you away. I mean I would completely understand if you did get pushed away but fighting it would be pretty refreshing. I don’t expect much. But I’m just saying, it would be pretty refreshing. I think I’m just scared of having feelings for people. Sincere feelings.
I’m trying to be more of a positive person because I feel like my negativity gets annoying sometimes.. but it’s really hard when everything freaking annoys me.
Whenever I have my next boyfriend or whatever, I want them to know that they don’t have to do stuff for me like planning big things or buying me presents and all that crap. I don’t want them to think that they have to go out of their way to make me happy. What makes me happiest is a person being them self and just keeping me company when I need it you know? I just don’t really...
Sometimes I get nervous that my friends secretly hate me.
I’ve talked to a lot of people about how I feel about certain situations and certain people. And I guess what really stuck out to me the most out of everything… is that I need to learn how to surround myself with the right people. I’ve been so frustrated these passed couple months because everyones annoying me and everyones opinions are clashing and everyones a hypocrite and yada...
I’ve believed for almost half my life that if I let people see me cry that they would think I was weak. For almost half my life I’ve hidden in my bathroom when I was crying so no one in my family would hear me. Even if it was no big deal. I’ve only even let a few of my own best friends see me cry. And if they have, well there was clearly no private area around. I don’t like...
Forgive me for putting more on my plate than I can handle.
But at least I’m trying.
Yes lets yell at the good daughter who’s going to graduate highschool and already knows what college she’s going to and never gets in trouble and when she does it’s for stupid reasons. lets get mad at the good daughter for not getting anywhere in life when anything she’s ever done was to benefit her future. yes lets get mad at her because we’re too scared that...
I have the imagination of a 5 year old and the motivation of a lazy teenager. At least I don’t have to complain about a lack of inspiration, because I have tons of it. It’s just locked up in my head and I have no clue how to get it out. I don’t even know where to begin. Or how to, for that matter.
wouldn’t it be cool if there was an app on iphones where you could pay money with your itunes account and it would make your favorite food pop out and into your hands
carne asada fries for days
I just realized how much I over think crap. I would say right now that I’m going to stop doing that and just take what people say to me seriously but lets face it.. that’s not going to happen.
I’ve come to a conclusion. Whatever negativity there is in this dance community, I’m going to ignore it. I don’t give a poop who hates who and who gives me bad vibes. I’m going to make friends with as many people as I can because this is my last year and I just want to be happy and be around people who love what I love. I mean that’s what this is all about isn’t...
I can’t really seem to figure out what’s more important in my life these days.
Whenever I see people post on tumblr I try to figure what phase of the reoccurring circle they’re in. The Happy—->Apathetic—->Sad—->Apathetic—->Happy—->Apathetic—->Sad (etc) circle. Basically I classify everyone. So you’ve been classified.
‘tis the season to dance for hours everyday until the end of friends and family and get sick at least 2 times. Possibly with Bronchitis or the flu. But it’s okay because it’s the best time of year and the most stressful… and yet the happiest. I love dancing I love dancing I love dancing I love dancing I love studio 429 and I love breakthrough and I love my directors and I...
“Wait you miss me? I thought I was the only one.”
I will now have Jin change my password until this semester is over because I really need to stop going on tumblr
adios muchachos
I really don’t see anything wrong with being single. When the time is right and I find someone, I wouldn’t mind it being unlabeled and easy. The worst part about relationships is the arguing and the jealousy and everyone else thinking they can butt in. So maybe if it was secret or less public it’d just be easier. I don’t know. I’m just kind of tired of the whole...
Sometimes I just want to let people know that I’m sad so I can see if they’d try to comfort me.
But I’ve never really been the sad person. I’ve never really been the person that was consoled or looked after. It’d be too uncomfortable of a situation, especially after getting used to pushing any negative feeling out of my head for years. But I don’t know,...
I really do hope that when I’m older and I get married (if I get married), that it is a successful marriage. I hope that I have wonderful kids and that we are wonderful parents. I hope that I don’t fail at that. I hope that they don’t get screwed up because of our mistakes. I’m actually really scared of having a family.
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“I’ve always described you as carefree…”
– Mariel Cornel
I’m really scared of being clingy to people.
“I love when they come and go.”
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I really wish I wasn’t so negative sometimes. There’s times when I’m just sitting with all of my friends and all of a sudden, everyone starts to annoy me. But I know that there really isn’t a specific reason, I’m just bothered. It’s kind of a claustrophobic feeling. It ruins my mood and I will not talk to anyone after. But I don’t know. It’s not...
What’s up with everyone being so standoffish and unapproachable these days? I know we don’t need to be friends with everyone, but that doesn’t mean we can be rude to every single person that isn’t our friend. It’s your loss, whoever you were just rude too could have been a good friend in your future. But now you’ll never know. Why? Because you thought that being...
Sometimes I’m honestly scared of my thoughts. I don’t mean the usual “think too much” thoughts. I mean I’m honest to god scared of my thoughts sometimes.
Just go with it.